Red's Official Statement
First off I'd like to thank everybody for coming here recently in what has proven to be a most difficult time for myself and my loved ones. Your unwavering support and kind words have no doubt made the past couple of days a little easier to cope with.
As you all know by now, Adrian Beltre is not only my favourite (Hi Graham) Mariner of all time, but he is my favorite athlete of all time. The last 4 years have been truly remarkable for me as it was the first time I have ever been able to watch my favorite player play for my favorite team, which in turn, happened to be the only home town team I've really cared about. For me, just because you live in a city with sports teams, that doesn't mean that you have to like them. The planets aligned that fateful day when Mr. Beltre signed his contract with the Mariners. So I did what any other perfectly normal person would do, I packed my bags, kissed my mother and girlfriend goodbye (Shannon would obviously join me a little later) and headed to Seattle!
As if getting to watch Adrian wasn't good enough, I soon found out that the GM of my place of employment has been a season ticket holder for years and had 4 seats only 5 rows behind the Mariner dugout. A small twist of fate one day led to the GM and I bumping into each other in the hall and having a quick chat about baseball. A couple of days later he offered me a set of tickets, and as they say, the rest is history.
It started with an innocent sign that confessed my undying non-sexual admiration for Adrian. He would always greet it with a nod and smile, even if it got him an innocent ribbing from his teammates. If that would have been it, that would have been enough for me. Athletes these days tend to barely recognize the fans that file through the gates to watch them compete in a game we all wish we could play. One late night after a game Shannon surprised me with what would turn out to be the second greatest gift of all time, a 3 foot tall Adrian Beltre bobblehead! Just a couple of short months later I built up the courage to toe that fine line of dedicated fan and creepy Robert DeNiro type fan by bringing the bobblehead to a game and giving it its own seat. As the players came up to the steps, they noticed my friend immediately and started laughing. First Washburn, then Vidro, and before I knew it, Adrian stepped out and saw what the commotion was about. He looked at me and shook his head and smiled the smile that we all grew to love. Once again he was a great sport about it and took everything in stride. At that point I was happy that I wasn't being viewed as the creepy fan. Again, if that was it, it would have made my season. Little did I know what events were about to transpire.
As the game wore on it seemed like any other ordinary night. I was chatting with some people a couple of rows behind me and all of a sudden I got a tap on the shoulder. Much to my surprise, Adrian had signed a bat he was using that night and inscribed it "to my #1 fan". Now obviously this was the greatest gift that I could EVER receive! To be perfectly honest, I had to use all my willpower to not cry like a excited little schoolgirl. As the warm fuzzies ran through my body for the next couple of hours, the Mariners would come back to win in an incredible game which in turn would be the greatest night of my life thus far. Even after that night, up to the final game of the 2009 season, whenever he saw me in the crowd, he would give the familiar head nod and cap tip that from the start would have been enough.
Like I said earlier, athletes just don't do things like that much anymore. I think that what makes him so darn likable is that he's human and isn't afraid to show it. In turn, that's what also makes the recent events of his departure that much more difficult. It's safe to say we all knew this day would come. Why would he stay in a park that crippled his numbers? Why would he continue to play in a city where the majority of the fans don't appreciate his skill set? The only reason most fans knew he was an incredible defender was because he won Gold Gloves, which we all know doesn't mean much. I guess I can't blame Adrian for leaving Seattle. I was just hoping that he wouldn't.
Now he's off to Boston and the team that I hate the most. There were only two teams I was hoping he wouldn't sign with, the other being LAA of course. He moves from the enormous confines of Safeco Field to the cozy short porch at Fenway Park. It could be feast or famine for him in Boston though. If he gets off to the start like he did here in Seattle, he's in trouble. But if he succeeds like most of us believe he will, than he will be loved throughout the city and be a great addition to an already great team.
I will always cheer for Adrian, regardless of the uniform he is wearing. I cheered for him when he was a Dodger, and I'll cheer for him as a member of the Red Sox. I will not however, be rooting for his team. It would be against my every moral fiber to muster a cheer for the Red Sox. If they win, I will be happy for Adrian, not the Red Sox.
I would be remiss by not mentioning that Adrian has indirectly introduced me to some of the coolest, most awesome people I will ever meet. Of course I'm talking about the community here at Lookout Landing. It started with Bretticus and Etown and branched out from there. I was introduced to Jeff, Matty Poo (Matthew), Graham, Robert, Eric, Laura, Kirsten, and the list goes on and on. Hell, I even got a chance encounter with the elusive Coach Owens! Adrian doesn't know this and probably never will, but he introduced me to a great group of people who I will continue to stay in touch with even if he is gone. Thank you Adrian!
Many people have asked me if I will get a Red Sox jersey. Some have told me they hope I don't get a jersey. This is only the first of what I'm sure is going to be many difficult decisions that will tear at my every emotion as the days pass on and the season draws closer. This one is clear though, I will be getting an Adrian Beltre Red Sox jersey. I know some of you will be disappointed but he is my favorite athlete of all time no matter the uniform he is wearing. I will see it as an Adrian Beltre jersey, not a Red Sox jersey.
These last few days have been trying. At first it was like what I imagine being punched in the gut by Mike Tyson AND Kimbo Slice feels like (yes, that bad)! After the initial shock, I thought I was okay. The next day however, was a little worse. It was like broken ribs and internal bleeding, and every time somebody would see me at work and want to talk about it, it's like I was being punched again. Hopefully the saying is true and time does heal all wounds because I don't want to feel like this anymore.
I know the start of the new season will re-trigger these emotions just as I am starting to forget about them. And about the time I get over those emotions...again, the Red Sox will come to town and stir everything up again. I always said the Red Sox were like herpes but I didn't know just how right I was. Just when you think everything is gonna be okay and you can forget about the past, BAM!!! They flare up again!
I will ALWAYS love the Mariners and I will ALWAYS love baseball, but with the experiences and and interactions I've had over the past few seasons, the 2010 season will be a bit lacking for me. I will still be enthusiastic and root for the Mariners like crazy, but without Adrian in that uniform, I have no one to bring out the happy ass retard in me. It's nothing personal, it's just that you cant pick and choose people that bring out those emotions in you. It just happens. Over time I imagine I will find a new favorite Mariner, but nobody will ever replace the great Adrian Beltre.
In closing, Mr. Beltre, if for some odd reason you get to read this, thank you for everything. Thank you for your quirks that make you so damn entertaining, even if some of them weren't for the best. Thank you for the happy feet, the appeal to first, throwing the glove at a ball over your head, and even swinging at the slider low and away. Thank you for always giving it everything you had, even during the horrible losing seasons. Thank you for showing your human side and not being afraid to show that you are having fun out there. It's these things that made us all admire you and enjoy every second that you were on the field for us. Thank you for showing that you are a god damned man and playing an extra inning game with a crushed testicle, and scoring the winning run from second base. Thank you for making all of us other men look like complete wimps by doing the previously mentioned. Thank you for the slow rolling barehanded play that should bear your name. Thank you for the home runs in San Diego on one knee and the tomahawk job at Safeco Field. But most of all, thank you for the small interactions that would have been enough.
Thank you for everything you crazy bastard! You will be missed by myself and the fans in Seattle who actually know something about baseball. Godspeed to you Mr. Beltre, we wish you nothing but the best for the rest of your hopefully lengthy career.
-Brandon Tofte (Red)
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Coach Owens has NOTHING on the elusiveness of Christian.
I will smash your face into a jelly.
by Phil Hatzenbuehler on Jan 6, 2010 1:42 PM PST up reply actions
Atractive Nuisance got like 140 on a FanPost
Fett got about 130 on a .gif
Fantastic.
My condolences, Red. And thanks. At least some part of my Beltre love comes from watching/hearing about the way he interacted with you.
Rockies & M's series in 09
I am a Colorado resident but huge Mariners fan so I caught the games at Coors Field. When I saw Red there I got so excited but to nervous to talk to him so I currently have a stalker like picture on facebook of me and Red in the background who is staring at the camera. Good creepy times all around. Thanks for showing us all to be a little bit more awesome Red!
Bring back Fum's Song!
I wish there you more fans like you Red.
A Few Hail Zduriencik!
by Goose on Jan 6, 2010 1:13 PM PST reply actions 3 recs
Agreed, I've never seen a fan add so much to experiencing a team.
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Nice sentiments
Very nice Red. Sorry you won’t have Beltre around any longer. We will all miss him. No matter what anyone thinks about him as a ball player (and I think he was a very good player), you have to admire him as a class act. I too will miss his smile.
Wow.
The last picture is my favorite, and this whole post gives me a mean case of the weeps.
It makes me glad to know that you were never regarded as “creepy”. :)
"Let this big fucker come in and walk the world here." - Dave Niehaus on JJ Putz
Red is the gold standard for fandom in general
Terribly sorry for your loss
This is awesome.
I remember when it all started back in 07, from a little screenshot Jeff took, to this. Keep rootin’ for the M’s and Beltre, Red! As Goose said, there needs to be more fans like Red.
I know how you feel, Red.
I had an attachment to Jerry Rice (I was raised as a 49ers fan) when I was growing up. When he went to the Raiders, I experienced the same sort of crisis, and came to the same conclusion as you: support the player, not the team.
I will smash your face into a jelly.
by Phil Hatzenbuehler on Jan 6, 2010 1:43 PM PST reply actions
I want to see Red on top of the Green Monster
Waiving the biggest Beltre head ever created.
Carlos Silvelite
I had seen vague...
…references to the whole “Red-AB” thing, but I never in a millennia would have guessed the depth of the references. I’m from Boston; I don’t hate the BoSox, nor do I like them. I do, however, love AB. We all know why; slow rollers to third, happy feet, etc. My wish for AB: .325 40/125. My wish for the BoSox: 81-81. I swear, though, if Boston turns on him I will lobby personally for the nuclear annihilation of the whole city. I lived in Natick, anyways; it should survive the blast. (Also, I was at the “Nutcracker Suite” game Jr. Griffey initiated, and the Guti homer against Texas for that Felix win… Fuck, I love baseball.)
by THolt on Jan 6, 2010 2:25 PM PST reply actions 1 recs
Addendum:
I really, really wish there were more fans like Red at Safeco. Why do Seattle sports fans suck so much? It’s not like Steve Kelley gets that much attention… right? Wait. Shit.
Seattle sports fans for the most part are pretty damn good it's just that the Mariners have fostered an atmosphere at Safeco that sucks.
Can someone explain this to me?
ZSwing%: "The rate at which a player wife-swaps with Jack Zduriencik." --- Vatinius
by .Taylor on Jan 6, 2010 5:47 PM PST up reply actions
People are idiots for taking issue with that.
Sorry, I’ll try to stay out of the realm of politics, but sheesh that’s obnoxious.
ZSwing%: "The rate at which a player wife-swaps with Jack Zduriencik." --- Vatinius
by .Taylor on Jan 6, 2010 5:54 PM PST up reply actions
"Fuck, I love baseball."
A-fucking-men
OOOOOH!!!!! That was NASTY!!!!!!!!
by bmxnw on Jan 6, 2010 4:51 PM PST up reply actions 1 recs
We need to get some group tickets and have another gathering at the Safeco next year
The first time the Red Sox come to town so we can cheer like mad men whenever Adrian… is Adrian.
Your devotion to Adrian Beltre was simply amazing.
I doubt there’s any fan that would go through the lengths that you would to show appreciation for their favorite player. I was a Erik Bedard fan ever since he was an Oriole (well actually only since 2006) and when he came to Seattle I got a jersey and I was so happy. However he struggled with injuries and I kinda kept it tucked away to avoid the fire sometimes… But you were consistently there to root for Beltre feast or famine. And while Safeco’s atmosphere kinda sucks every time I see one of your signs Red I just start grinning like an idiot. Simply put there’s not enough fans like you Red and godspeed and your journey.
You got slurved!
I can definitely relate. There's no chance in hell I can even claim to love Adrian Beltre as much as you Red, but he's been my favorite Mariner for quite awhile, too, and it's extremely sad to see him go.
I love him as a ballplayer, but I think the biggest reason I like him so much is that he just seems like a genuine, really good guy. I’m not going to root for the Red Sox now either, but at least now if they win the world series there will be a silver lining – a pretty big one, too.
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How the hell does this post only have 49 recs?
“And every one of his words rang true and burned like glowing coals” – Bob Dylan
Between this post and watching the highlight video posted at OTM
I’m finally starting to feel a sense of loss.
Beltre brought us defensive highlights, quirky shenanigans, the occasional “how did he do that” homerun…and Red.
Thanks Beltre.
I think he should start cheering for Figgins.
2009 Safeco Field Record: 6-0 ; Overall Safeco Field Record: 10-4
by Fin on Jan 6, 2010 5:57 PM PST up reply actions
Well written Red.
I too had the pleasure of meeting you once, at a bowling shindig. You’re not only one of the best fans I’ve ever seen, but also a hell of a nice guy..
My thoughts are with you as you endure your loss. May the future bring another quirky baseball player to Seattle to steal a spot in your heart.
"Fights begin, finger prints are took, days is lost, bail is made, court dates are ignored, cycle is repeated."
The title of this post is wrong.
It should be “Adrian Beltre: A love story.”
Red moved to Seattle for Adrian Beltre?
My friend moved to Seattle for Kurt Cobain but has had a hard time finding him.
Funny how life works.
Great post, great fan.
by Tony S on Jan 6, 2010 7:51 PM PST reply actions 3 recs
Adrian has been my favorite player since his 2003.
Red, you showed me what real fandom was. I loved the man, but I never loved him as much as you did. And I don’t know what that must have entailed, because every time he came to bat I stopped whatever I was doing, and I never missed a defensive half of an inning because Oh My God Adrian.
Seriously, Brandon, you’re an inspiration and I am glad to have met you.
I've put off reading this due to sadness, but my sadness cannot compare to yours.
Seeing you and the Adrian head at games always put a smile on my face, and hearing you speak of His Greatness revealed just how much you love the man (in a nonsexual way, of course). He is not only an incredible player but clearly an awesome soul, and I’m glad he acknowledged just how great of a fan you are. I hope you brave the invasion of the RSN to cheer on Adrian when he returns.
by Kirsten Schlewitz on Jan 7, 2010 11:14 AM PST reply actions
One of my alltime favorite athlete stories...
came from the back of an SI issue years ago. It was about Rickey Henderson and his number 1 fan, a girl in Oakland..
She was around 10-12, and he was known as a mercurial a-hole, and the story was one of the best player/fan connections I had ever read.
When you mentioned the special dynamic you had, and the fact that you felt like crying like “an excited little schoolgirl” I couldn’t help but to think of that story again. Hope you take a read (and enjoy it.)
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by Tyler Jorgensen on Jan 7, 2010 12:14 PM PST reply actions
Great story
And she’d be about 25 now (and he’s in the Hall of Fame). I wonder if she’s still a baseball fan, or if her life has moved on to other things?
THANKS RED!!
Living in MT, we don’t have any Division 1 or pro teams of any kind, but we do have the M’s (and Grizzz). I’ve been a die hard for years and through my fan-dome I have converted a few more, but wow, just wow when I first saw you on the tube. I laughed at first; you always looked like you were having a great time. It made my game watching MORE pleasureable in a non-sexual way. The night I saw you get the bat, I felt like crying FOR you, because I ‘knew’ how much it meant to you. Heck, it meant alot to all of us. That was the first time I had seen a player actually care about a fan, other than guys who sign bats for people they’ve nearly killed by releasing the bat. It made me proud to be an M’s fan.
Oh, and thanks Adrian! You were pretty cool too.
I have a cousin with 1 testicle, when they yell play ball, he smiles.
Long time, don't see
Hey Red,
Saw you with the big Beltre head on TV and swore it was you Brandon Tofte, but my Dad didn’t believe me. This is “Kamikaze Dan” Trujillo. Still living in Vancouver, and still driving up to as many M’s games as I can. I remember when we were both in the same class in 1995, when the Mariners just refused to lose. Fun times that I always cherish.
Sorry about Beltre leaving. It stings! Never saw a slicker glove at the hot corner, or a guy who would play through so much pain. I drafted Beltre for the first time in a fantasy baseball league in 2003, the year before he hit those 48 home runs everybody rags on him about for not duplicating. I was so excited about Beltre coming to Seattle in 2005, I attended my first opening day game. Sexson hit two homers that day. Still not a fan of his, although he always seemed to hit a home runs at the games I went to (even a walk off grand slam against the Rays in 2006). Didn’t have much luck with Beltre, although I always cheered for him.
I’ve felt the pain you’re feeling now when Griffey left the Mariners in 1999. I torn my A-Rod poster off the wall when he left in 2000. The Mariners winning 116 games in 2001 softened the blow. I never, ever thought Griffey would return. I’m blessed.
Hope to see you again on TV when the Red Sox come to town.
Stay in Seattle. Don’t move to Boston.
Wear your Dominican jersey
To the Red Sox games at Safeco, rather than joining the hated Bandwagon Sox Nation.
Great essay, Red. I don’t think I could ever love one player as much or as purely as you. And I consider that a character flaw in me.

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